Death Is the Pathway to Life--My Path to Transformation
“For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it”. Matthew 16:25
What is metamorphosis? Well, according to Dictionary.com, it means:
A) In an insect or amphibian—the process of transformation from an immature form to an adult form in two or more distinct stages.
B) A change of the form or nature of a thing or person into a completely different one, by natural or supernatural means.
In my blog, “Rebirth”, I shared my life story & one of the things I shared was my connection to the butterfly, how its role played in my life & that they were the guardian angels that were watching over me.
In my life, I have gone through a lot of things, more than most. When you have experienced so many heartbreaks, disappointments, rejection & toxicity, that can leave you mentally & emotionally scarred, as well as leaving you with no confidence in yourself, which leads to low self-esteem. It will make you shut down completely & put up walls. It puts you in a position to always do what you need to do to protect your heart.
Was I always on the receiving end of the hurt & pain? No. In the past, did I ever do things or put myself in situations that I should have never been in or allowed myself to be in? Yes! Have I ever been a bad Mother? A bad daughter? A bad sister? A bad friend? Yes!
You see, the first step to wanting to change wholeheartedly is being able to admit that you made mistakes & not playing the victim role all of the time. I no longer wanted to sit in that hurt, anger, pain, disappointment & rejection of my past from everything I’ve been through & was a part of. That’s when I told God that I was tired & not only was I tired but I was no longer going to continue to give my past & all of the people in it, control over my emotions any longer. That was the point in my life when I decided that I was surrendering everything to God completely & that I was ready for true complete healing & peace in my life. That’s when Metamorphosis---the great transformation process began.
You see, while God was completely emptying me so that He could fill me up whole again when He was taking all of my broken pieces & piecing them back together again when He was restoring everything as if it never happened—all of the past hurts, pain, disappointment, rejection, etc., all of this was happening during the Chrysalis phase—the cocoon that God had placed me in—my period of isolation.
All during this process of being still, in total isolation in my cocoon, I had to trust God & His process; not knowing the outcome or what I would be like or look like coming out. I just had to trust Him & give Him complete & total control while the shifting & transformation was taking place.
When God knew I was ready to come out of isolation, out of the Chrysalis—my cocoon, He started allowing my wings to be seen through the cocoon. He started allowing His blessings to start showing when I allowed Him to take the wheel. Then I was out of the cocoon completely.
At this point, everything from my past was completely let go of. I was totally released, restored, revived & renewed! You see, for me, death (the caterpillar) was the pathway to life (becoming the butterfly). You can choose to sit in the hurt, pain & disappointment that you’ve experienced with people/things & everything associated with your past. In that, you are continuing to allow those things to have complete control over your emotions; or you can choose to heal from your past & move forward, being completely FREE & at PEACE.
You see, I was choosing to allow God to do what He needed to do in my life so that I could heal completely & move forward. I chose to be still, be in isolation in that cocoon so that I could start the pathway to complete healing. I was not meant to stay stuck in my past, staying stuck in all the hurt & neither are you. God needed me to follow His lead & go through the process because He was waiting for me to walk in His purpose & will that He had for my life, therefore resulting in me serving those whom I have been called to serve. For that to have happened, I also had to be ready for it. God is waiting on your YES! He is waiting on you to go through the process of healing so that you can serve who you are called to serve also. Your purpose is not for you—it’s attached to whom you are called to serve.
So now that the butterfly has been released, I had to get rid of the remaining waste—the Meconium—that was produced during the transformation process. You see, during my isolation period in my cocoon, God was doing what He needed to do in me while continuing to get rid of everything & everyone that no longer needed to be part of this new journey in my life. So once my process of transformation inside the cocoon was complete & I was fully out of isolation, God still was removing the Meconium—the waste, the blessing blockers & the distractions out of my life.
So you see, this was the process that I had to go through to get where I am now. Am I still changing & transforming? Absolutely! But the difference is that now I have completely let go of my past & all that was connected to it. I chose to be transparent about my life & say yes to God to allow Him to do what He needed to do in my life. It all starts with you! You can choose to heal & live in complete freedom & peace, or you can choose to stay stuck & allow your past to control you. The choice is yours!
If you don’t remember or get anything else out of this blog, let me leave you with this point to remember—You can’t GROW, keeping “IT” on the LOW!